it’s been a while; so, let’s take a moment for me to explain my summer..

• got buzzed with my guy bestfriend and flirted hardcore all night, two hours later we confess our feelings. that was the beginning of a fucked up summer.
• above led to my best friend and i sneaking out and hanging out with the above guy. night ended with my friend in the driver seat and the guy and i making out in the back, not my shining moment.
• above led to us talking for a week, yes that is all. he went on to say that he just didn’t think it was going to work, cool.
• next month i was completely led on then heartbroken then led on again, put that on on repeat, by the same guy.
• while this is all happening a co-worker/classmate and i have been flirting since february-ish? this begins to heat up more, this comes in later.
• i go to virginia with a very good friend and have a blast, there are some upsides to this summer!
• when i get back, seriously the night after i get back, i stay at my grandma’s. above co-worker is having a party across the street(did i forget to mention he lives across the street from my grandma?) well yes his family was having a fourth of july party and i was staying at my grandma’s alone for the week. it was midnight when i got home and he said hi to me, basic shit. get a text asking if i want a beer and i said yes. well long story short i got trashed, he was trashed. we didn’t have sex, but use your imagination…in my crazy religious grandmother’s house.
• bestfriend finds out and makes damn sure to be a my grandma’s the next three days; jealous much, just friend?
• confusion sets in, i ask. i get shot down…again
• that saturday hang out with co-worker and another co-worker, i get high for the first time…that was an adventure, i burnt my thumb
• time passes; bestfriend gets drunk, i pick him up and we drive around. he confesses to him being bothered by whole co-worker situation and that he still has feelings for me
• next day, i ask him if he remembers what he said and if it was true…it was. EVERYTIME I THINK I’M GETTING AWAY, HE DRAWS ME BACK IN!
• a few days pass; i get trashed and send him the worst text possible. i tell him that his girls bother me and that we obviously still have feelings for each other.
• next morning; he throws everything back in my face and says i’m forcing him to have feelings he doesn’t have, bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

            i have not spoken to either boy above since last said activities, it’s been a fantastic summer.