sometime i wonder why it can never be me. he tells me he never lies to me and i’m one of the only people he tells everything too. we always have those moments where in any normal situation, he would look me in the eye and kiss me. but no; ‘you’re my best firend’ he says, ‘i never want to lose you.’ go on; date the whores, do what you need to. but soon you’ll realize i was the only thing you wanted or needed. except then it will be too late, i will have moved on. i need to move on. i can’t be the girl he can always depend on. i can’t be the girl he knows he can always come back to. that isn’t me. i need to find my own way and know that i am worth someone’s first pick, not just the rebound. sadly, it’s time to let him go and know that we will always be friends, only friends.