sometimes i wonder what the point is. what is the point of going after things we don’t know we’re going to get? how do we keep putting ourselves through the dissappointments? why do we choose to set goals that will probably never happen? all it does is tear us down to the point of us cracking. i want so much in life but i have no idea how to achieve it. how do we expect ourselves to get what we want in life when we don’t even know our first move? in this life, i’ve felt more lonely than anything. sure i have good friends and an amzing family. yet, i feel like im walking through life on my own. no, i’m not suicidal. don’t worry about that. i’m just cracking. i don’t know what i should do first. as my last three semesters of highschool come up fast, i’m starting to worry about my future. my dreams are so big and so out there, i feel as if i am setting myself up for disaster. i’m going out of my mind with the fear of failure. i’m asking myself questions i’ve never worried about before. i’m losing my self confidence, i’m second guessing myself. i’ve never done this that much before. i’m tired. i need a break from reality. i need to get away for awhile and clear my mind.